Another year has passed. I’m not sure if this past year has made me a better person—more mature, more useful to others than before. But one thing is clear: I feel that my current self is more sincere in facing what’s ahead. I’m learning not to overthink things. It’s challenging, but I’ll keep trying my best.

For the first time, I took a day off on my birthday to do the things I wanted, just for me. I treated myself to a massage at the salon, ate sushi, bought my favorite perfume, picked up some Auntie Anne's, watched a movie, and enjoyed it all by myself. I even bought some books and tried to get back into reading. I spent a bit today, but I feel content.

This year, I hope to complete half of my deen, to find someone I can talk to, spend time with, and who will be with me for the rest of my life. I also hope to bring more happiness to myself and to my father, to live healthier, and to be more consistent with exercise.

Happy birthday to me! Thank you for fighting, for always smiling even when you’re sad, and for doing everything on your own, even when it’s tough and not always your best.

Stay true to being the Cindhi who doesn’t show her problems to others, who embraces spontaneous ideas, and who’s always willing to help others if she can. I know you feel insecure and sometimes ashamed of your situation, but try to make peace with it. Some things take a lot of time, energy, effort, and resources to change.

Don’t forget to keep up with your training, continue your scrapbooking, and keep posting on your IG scrapbook page… Don’t get lazy. Cheer up, you’ll get through it all. I believe in you—you can do it. 

Thank you, Allah SWT, my only God, who understands me more than I understand myself, who knows what’s best for me, and who is always kind to me. Please forgive me for not being the best follower. May I be able to visit Your House in Mecca, and may I become a more obedient and better person in Your eyes.

Aamiin..

Bismillah... Once again, 생일 축하해 나에게...!

14/11/2024 : 23:59 WIB